I have two wonderful little babies. They are almost six months old. I can not believe how fast the last six months have gone by. I can already see that my babies are going to grow up way to fast and I admit it makes me a little sad. I wish I could keep them little and cuddled up in my arms forever. I guess that can't happen though. I never thought of my own mortality until I had babies. I always thought I was young and had so much time. I now know that is not true. Before I know it my babies will be toddlers, then kids, then teens, and finally adults. I can't imagine it but I know it will happen faster than I want it to. Then my time will be up. And we only get one chance. Why do so many people, people like me waste so much time. I have wasted almost 3 decades and for what. I have not done many things I wanted to do. I have not really traveled, I have never been in love for real, I have never flown a plane, I have never sang karaoke or gone sailing. There are many more things I would like to experience. The one thing I have done that is great is have my babies. When I kiss them good night and look at their little sleeping faces, I know that there is nothing I would have change about my past. For all the good I have been through and all the bad I have been through it has all been worth it.