Wow how time has gone by. Almost 13 years now that I have been the proud mother of the two sweetest kids I could ever hope for. I started this blog such a long time ago and it was with the intention of remembering and notating the life I was to share with my beautiful family. There are so many memories of I lost that I can not get back. Memories of fun experience, funny moments, and so much more. I wish I had taken more time to write about these things. But I have learned that it is sometimes better to let the past stay in the past.
I am finally living my best life. I have been able to unburden myself of all the people who have caused me pain in the past. I live a life free of guilt for them. I have learned to be completely self sufficient. Never before in my life was that true. There was always some person there to catch me if I fell, if I failed. Now it is all up to me. And I have learned it is not always easy. But also that I can do it.
I am living in a city that is becoming a home to me. I am making friends, I am working a job that I really enjoy and I am making a lot more money than I ever thought I would. I have learned that it is okay to have nice things and do fun things and how important it is to experience life every day. (Not that I do. Somedays it is just work and crash out).
I have learned that I am a very good parent. Without ever experiencing good parenting myself it has been such a joy to be able to know that I have done so much to make my children the great humans they are. It is so shocking to me every time people tell me how great my kids are. I unfortunately let some people convince me (for a small period of time) that I was not a good parent. That is a mistake I will never make again.
I have decided it is time to make memories again. Starting today I am living a full life with my kids and it is going to continue to be amazing. I say continue because it has been amazing since the first day.
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