June is pride month

Apparently June is PRIDE month. I took my kids to their first pride fest. It was a lot of fun. I am very lucky to have such and open relationship with my kids. We have a pact -no secrets, no lies- a pact that my son sticks to like glue and my daughter tries to but it isn't always possible for her. But my sons unwavering loyalty will not allow him to  lie to me. More on that later.

So when they are giving away condom at a booth and my son asks What's a condom? I have to smile and tell him well so condoms are for safer sex. Nothing you need right now. You will use those later. And that leads to a further conversation when we get home on condoms. Which leads to me showing them how it works (on a very fat for a marker but very thin for a condom). Which leads to why condoms are necessary. (Prevent stds, prevent early pregnancies). Which leads to how sometimes people try to pressure other people not to use condoms. About ejaculation, eggs, sperm, coming, masterbation,  consent, horniness, and so much more. Just me and my two twelve year old chilling out together talking about sex. And not a drop of awkwardness, discomfort, or any other weirdness. 

I love the open lines of communication I have created with my children. I love that they can talk to me about anything, or they can not tell me stuff and their is nothing to weird or awkward for them. I am their safe space. I always have been and I always will be. 

A new life

Wow how time has gone by. Almost 13 years now that I have been the proud mother of the two sweetest kids I could ever hope for. I started this blog such a long time ago and it was with the intention of remembering and notating the life I was to share with my beautiful family. There are so many memories of I lost that I can not get back. Memories of fun experience, funny moments, and so much more. I wish I had taken more time to write about these things. But I have learned that it is sometimes better to let the past stay in the past. 

I am finally living my best life. I have been able to unburden myself of all the people who have caused me pain in the past. I live a life free of guilt for them. I have learned to be completely self sufficient. Never before in my life was that true. There was always some person there to catch me if I fell, if I failed. Now it is all up to me. And I have learned it is not always easy. But also that I can do it. 

I am living in a city that is becoming a home to me. I am making friends, I am working a job that I really enjoy and I am making a lot more money than I ever thought I would. I have learned that it is okay to have nice things and do fun things and how important it is to experience life every day. (Not that I do. Somedays it is just work and crash out).

I have learned that I am a very good parent. Without ever experiencing good parenting myself it has been such a joy to be able to know that I have done so much to make my children the great humans they are. It is so shocking to me every time people tell me how great my kids are. I unfortunately let some people convince me (for a small period of time) that I was not a good parent. That is a mistake I will never make again.

I have decided it is time to make memories again. Starting today I am living a full life with my kids and it is going to continue to be amazing. I say continue because it has been amazing since the first day.