Going home

I have the two sweetest babies. My little Emily full of smiles and my getting bigger Julian so full of concern. I have loved them since the second I saw them... before that even. I decided to stay with my sister in Massachusetts temporary. I will be going into a homeless shelter soon. I have felt so empty and so scattered lately. I have thought about why this is and I came to the conclusion that this is because I have no home. I have a place to stay here, a place to stay there, but no home. No where I can feel like I am finally home. No where I can say okay I am going home now and then I go home. I have felt this immense sadness and a longing to go home. Unfortunately that is not going to happen right now. So I am staying with my sister, then my cousin, then a friend through the holidays then it is off to the homeless shelter. I am hoping to one day have a hoe somewhere so that my children never feel the way I have felt so many times. My children are so precious and so innocent. So if you are reading this keep your fingers crossed for us. I know that tomorrow will be better than today. I know someday I will be going home.