Feeling the sweetness

I just peeked in on my sleeping babies. There is nothing more angelic or more pure than a sleeping baby. You can see the innocence on their face. They can and do go all day screaming for you to do this for them, do that for them. Barely a moment is available for rest. But then they sleep. I look in on them five or six times during their naps and even more than that when I put them down for the night. They are almost seven months old now and I still feel compelled to check if they are okay. Make sure they are just sleeping. All I have to do is give them a small rub on the cheek. They do a little shiver or a little movement and I know all is well. I read that babies who use pacifiers are less likely to have SIDS. With a pacifier they do not go into as deep a sleep and then are easier to wake if in the wrong position. Something like that. My son Julian is pacifier obsessed, which I admit I am okay with. Emily loves her pacifier too but Julian is just hooked. When I go in to check on them at night I will sometimes give Julian his pacifier. I really do this because I think it is so darn cute seeing him completely asleep but when I rub the pacifier on his lip him going for it. His little mouth opening and he leans forward. All while staying asleep. I tried with Emily but once she is asleep she no longer cares about the pacifier. But if there was ever an angel it is sleeping Emily. Where Julian looks cuter than anything you have ever seen Emily pulls my heart strings.

Wow where to start. So much has happened in the last couple of weeks. I'll start off with my first born Julian. His standing is getting better. His balance is still not great, so he has to be held when he stand. I got him a walker, my neighbor actually found one someone wanted to get rid of and so she nabbed it for me. I had to clean it up a bit but it is great. Julian likes to go in it. He will stand and push with his feet and then the walker will push backwards until he gets across the floor. He has not got the hang of going forward yet so I have to pull it forward so he can go back again. It is a nice relief though not having to hold him standing up for hours at a time. If I need to do things than that is one of the places I can put him. He is so cute and when he is in it he looks up at me with his beautiful brown eyes and I am overcome. I just want to kiss him for hours, which even at 6 months he won't stand for. He'll met me kiss him for a few minuted before he bored and ready for a new activity.

My dear Emily. I have never known such tender sweetness. She is everything and more that a sweet little girl can be. She smiles no matter what. She rarely cries and if she does it is as simple as a kiss from Mommy to make her happy again. She so patient. Where Julian is loud and demanding she is able to sit patiently and wait her turn. As I learn I am learning that she would sit and wait forever if I let her. But I do not. I make sure she knows how much I love her and how important she is to me. Just thinking about her makes my heart melt. I never knew love before. She is definitely rolling over now. I have her on the floor on this play mat my aunt got me. She will roll over and lay there like a turtle on its back. I come and turn her back over and next thing she is on her back again. I had her in the couch sitting next to me. Don't worry I had my legs were blocking the edge. So all in one move she leans forward and lands face down on the couch and then rolls over to the edge (where my legs where) and then she looked up at me smiling. Its like she is some kind of acrobat. I really love everything about my beautiful girl. I love her little tummy where I will blow kisses which makes her smile so big and her eyes go so wide. I love kissing the bottom of her feet. I grab her leg and kiss her foot and then let it go. Then she puts her little foot up for me to do again.

Together they are a team that I have accepted I can not beat. They get me every time. If I am annoyed at them they see it and it just makes them laugh which makes me laugh. I can't imagine what they are going to put me through in a couple years. They are becoming very fond of each other too. If I sit them or lay them near each other they will laugh and stare. The first time this happened I put them in the crib for a nap. A few minutes went by and I hear giggling . I went in and I see them playing with each others hands and it is Emily giggling. They have recently begun to get a little too rambunctious lately. The last time they were in the crib together without me there Emily kicked Julian in the face and there was the tiniest bit of blood in his nose. I heard him cry in an unusual way, ran in and ever since they have not been sleeping together. It is too bad because I thought I would keep them together for years. I thought it would make them closer. I can tell that they don't need my help to be close. They adore each other. I adore them and the fact that they both smile and flail their arms and legs when I come in from the other room make me believe that they adore me too.